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What Do You Want From Today

On January 1st of this year I got notice that one of my dear friends from Sweet Adalines might be passing away soon. I sent her a quick note telling her how much she means to me and how her memory will live on in me. What do you want from today?

On January 3rd, we brought the car into the shop to fix the overdrive switch. Went to work feeling flustered and completely miss a memo and part of the lesson. What do you want from today?

On January 4th, I found out my father was in the hospital for a lot of bleeding and that he might need a blood transfusion. I had no clue how grave or how procedural this was going to be, and I’m not sure if my mother did either. What do you want from today?

On January 5th, my father had 2 procedures that went well and was released from the hospital. And, on January 5th, my friend peacefully passed away. What do you want from today?

On January 6th, I learned that we would need to keep the car in the shop for another week and a half because they need to rebuild the transmission. Because of this, the trip to see some of my friends needed to be postponed. What do you want from today?

On January 7th, one of my dear friends from Sweet Adalines got married to the love of her life. I wish them every happiness and I am sure they will get it. What do you want from today?

This week has been an influx of bad news; from friends losing jobs, to people losing loved ones, to people frightened for their lives; and all in the first week of the new year. At the start of the new year, all people want is to feel good, to feel like they are worth something; and this week most of that has shattered.

When you’re feeling bad, thinking even a couple of days ahead may feel unattainable, especially when you are depressed. This year we are at the precipice of sure destruction of the current statues quote, and already it is beginning to shatter. We don’t need to be considering the next 6 months of our existence, we need to be focusing more than ever on the present moment.

Because of this, I’ve decided to make it a habit of asking myself and my partner every single day, “What Do You Want from Today?” It doesn’t sound like much, but taking every morning to address what we both want from the day really helps us focus on what we would like every day rather than rushing to “live” for tomorrow or a week or a year from now. We might not accomplish everything we set out to do, but having been in alignment with what we both want gives us the drive to do more of what we want and less of what we don’t.

With all that being said, I will ask you all the question:

What To You Want From Today?

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I Quit My Job, Now What?

For those of you who do not know, I recently quit my job as a marketing coordinator and moved back to Florida with a little under $300 in my bank account. I’ll be the first to admit, this may not have been the most ideal situation, however it is already done and I am excited to move forward. Well, I was until I realized I didn’t have a plan once I arrived here, and this is where you all come in.

This blog will be documenting my journey into wherever my life leads at this point. Not sure what schedule I will have but it is a necessity for me to write at this moment in my life. I’m currently applying for a couple of jobs for online positions and one that I am extremely excited about that will take me across the USA for 16 weeks. I’m currently living in my partner’s house with his grandmother and her boyfriend. This house has been wonderful for the last couple of weeks, my partner made sure that I had time to wind down after working and school nonstop for years on end. I had no clue how exhausted I actually was until a little over a week ago actually.

We went to Tallahassee to meet up with a friend of ours and see their musical last night. The entire day was quite the adventure, as we had been talking most of the night the night before. We woke up and quickly left the house with no phone charger or snacks which is very unlike me, I drove for two and a half hours then we met up with our friend for lunch. We were planning on telling her we are dating, but somehow got distracted and figured it wasn’t the right time. Then we got to explore the Tallahassee Automobile Museum, and I began to realize how exhausted I was almost collapsing onto the museum floor. We went to eat dinner and started to feel better, then we headed to what we thought was the location of the play and waited for a bit. The storm outside began to rage on when someone who was also going to the play noticed we were at the wrong location. We decided we would walk in the storm since it was only 5 blocks away.

I don’t think it ever took us that long to walk anywhere honestly; we were soaking wet with an umbrella that was slightly broken walking along FSU. We debated not even going, but we finally made it to the location. The musical was excellent, a tail two Jewish children escaping from Nazi’s ending up in what they think is Paris, France. As we were still exhausted, we decided to head home before saying goodbye to our friend.

On the way home, I became overwhelmingly exhausted and had to stop at a rest stop; well two rest stop. I ended up sleeping until the morning in the car with a dead phone and a car that isn’t mine. Needless to say, it was a weird evening. Furthermore I realized that while I need time off, I need to develop a routine so I am not so exhausted all the time. So here is to actually developing some semblance of life structure.

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