Here I go again at nearly 3 am writing. I haven’t been able to write in months and now my creative juices have return. MY have I missed them. But not as much as I have missed other things. Mountains to hike on; cafes you can walk to; clean streams to swim in; my friends who live far away; college life; etc.
Yes you heard right; I miss college. Beyond the friends I made, the choir, the scholarship money, and fun, I miss it. I miss going to class; I miss having a purpose for every single day. I miss being able to figure out who are the best teachers at your program; I miss that learning environment. I’m turning 24 this year. This means for the first time I will be able to get money from the government as my parents won’t have to be on my FASFA. This is probably the best news ever for a college student. For the first time in 3 years I’m thinking about going back to school without anyone forcing it down my throat.
See I’ve always loved learning; I wanted to be a teacher when I was a kid and I actually became one for a while up until 2 months ago. Once college started I realized how much I liked school. I enjoyed going to class every day for Choir and almost every day for other subjects. Math was fun and so was learning history; even if I fell asleep at the 8 am classes. Best of all I was good at school. I got honors for my associate of arts degree! There were 2 main reasons I didn’t continue immediately.
- I wasn’t ready to continue due to mental health reasons that wouldn’t be resolved until last year.
Aside from those two there was the whole “not knowing what I wanted to do with my life”. As well as struggling with the fact that I had still lost my piano scholarship. Also my relationship with my parents was strained to the point I couldn’t see how bad it was until I got out. I felt stuck and so lost; I wanted to run away. But at the same time; I also wanted to find interests in different things. I wanted to explore the world and be with a bunch of different people. The idea of traveling everywhere while learning has always enticed me.
I also understood from a young age that a degree doesn’t get you anywhere without experiences. My mother taught both my brother and I to always give back to the community in any way we could. Mainly thought volunteer work all through high school. Which is why during high school I interned/volunteered at a museum, tutored and taught piano. After college I interned for my sister’s marketing firm which lead to a job in my brother-in-law’s company. My sister’s archaeology past brought me to volunteer and the Division of Archaeology in Louisiana. Something was missing though; I still didn’t get to experience all of what I wanted.
There are many things this could be; it could be studying in college and traveling the world through an organization. It could be working abroad using some sort of certification. Or staying in a place for a few months; working a ton and then high-tailing it to the next place. Or staying in one place and working hard at something for a year than trying to doing something meaningful.
So in order to finally get some sleep tonight I’ve compiled a bunch of ideas that have been stirring in my head. Enjoy! *Note: please read through the end if you are reading this; I have an important announcement at the end*
- College would be fun; but I still have no idea what I would study.
- I love music; but I can be a teacher without a degree especially now that I have the experience under my belt.
- Archaeology would be fun but rather pointless unless I get a doctorates and teach; and then I would be tied down.
- Quite frankly getting any other degree unless I need to work in an conventional job is pointless right now. Unless I find something to study that I’m passionate about.
- Certifications would be an easier way for me to find a living.
- Reiki would be wonderful for personal use but that would really be all I would use it for. I don’t foresee myself doing it on other people unless I become a Reiki Master. Still think I will get the certification at some point but maybe not now.
- Life Coaching sound fantastic! But if I don’t know what I’m doing how can I really help others? I know you learned to know what you’re doing through the training. And I’m good at giving advice to certain types of people. I don’t know; maybe this is in a possibility pile.
- Child Development. This would be enriching but this would boil down to the same reason why I quit my teaching job. My partner and I want to travel and I couldn’t if i was working at a daycare center. I would be fun for when we settle down somewhere though.
- Travel Agent. Pro: Free trips if you make a lot of sales; great profit if you work to the bone. Con: SOOO MUCH TIME TO BUILD IT UP
- Getting a part time (or 2 part time) job(s)
- Retail Jobs are actually fun. With all the experience I have I could get up to assistant manager or something in no time. Upside: WAY more cash to flow between savings and traveling. Downsides: no time for anything else during; but that isn’t terrible for me as it for my relationships with friends and family. Compilation: No vehicle to take me to said job right now.
- I could work from home doing editorial help or attempting to write for people about stuff. And this is actually something I’m trying to do right now. I’m struggling writing things that is relevant for the boards. This might be something I need to focus on a bit more.
- Jewelry business: I could ramp up production. However, the reality is to make money in a business you need money in the first place. And I don’t want to waste someone else’s money on something that I’m not sure I can produce a profit on. Nevertheless, I will work on this for a small scale for now.
- Marketing? I honestly have no clue how I would use this skill unless I write for companies or market my own stuff. It’s a great skill; but where I’m at right now I’m not sure what to do with it.
- Tutoring is fun if you get the right type of clients and it is something I could do online. The main downsides are a vehicle if I need to travel around and making sure I get the right clients. Also, what can I tutor in? The time I tutored in English he didn’t get the score on his test he wanted. So a lot good I did…lol
So I’m not sure how to conclude this article aside from saying I don’t want any advice. Not because I need to do this one my own; because I don’t. It’s because I already have a million things floating through my head as we speak. The last thing I wish is the have more ideas shoved down my throat again. That’s part of why I had mental health issues before. If I need advice I will come to the people I know will help me when I need it in my due time.
Sometimes we all need a little struggle in our lives; and sometimes we need to be a little risky. I was watching a Will Smith interview about the time he jumped out of an airplane with some of his friends. The entire night before and up until right before he jumped he was scared out of his mind. He couldn’t sleep. Then; once he was pushed out of the airplane; he felt blissful; he realized he spent the entire day on edge for nothing. He was safe and thoroughly enjoyed the experience. He ended the video by saying this “The best things in life are on the other side of terror, on the other side of your maximum fear, are all of the best things in life.”
Here’s to finding out what is on the other side of my maximum fear, whatever that may be.
Much love and always wishing the world the best,
PS: Here’s to hoping I can get some sleep now that this is out there. Much love and Many Blessings to you all ❤